If I hadn't known it already, today would have convinced me that Edward was too good to be true. He didn't even flinch when Dr. Miller asked him to step into her office. Quite the opposite, he actually seemed to welcome the opportunity to speak with her.
He grasped my hand, and never released it during the entire visit.
Of course Kim never mentioned the things we'd talked about during my sessions, her main focus while speaking with us seemed to be how we planned to handle the stress of being in the public eye, especially after our marriage.
Edward had obviously given it a lot of thought, admitting that as much as he loved his career, he loved me infinitely more, and my wishes and needs would always be his first priority.
Gah.
After my appointment, he had Sidney drive us to the movie theater. "What would you like to see Bella?" He asked as we stood in line.
Fifteen minutes later we were seated in the theater, waiting for Letters To Juliet to begin. I looked around as we sat there. It didn't surprise me that the theater wasn't full. It was a Monday afternoon, so I hadn't expected a crowd. I was surprised however, to find that Edward was the only male in the entire theater.
I really hope this film isn't a total chick flick.
Before the lights dimmed and the movie previews began, I came to the painful realization that Edward's hoodie disguise hadn't concealed his identity very well. Every female in the room was ogling my fiancé.
I may have glared at them until they got the message.
And I may have shamelessly flashed my engagement ring. Several times.
Back off bitches. He is mine.
The movie was sweet, and romantic, and definitely not just for chicks. Edward kept his arm around my shoulders and I rested my head against him as we watched the main characters trek all over the Italian countryside. Now and then, he would lean down to kiss me.
Every time it happened, I lost my train of thought for a moment, making it difficult to follow the storyline. After a while, I decided it didn't matter, I'd buy the damn DVD when it was released.
Kissing Edward definitely trumps anything this theater has to offer any day of the week.
"Edward, do you think we can take a trip to Italy while you're filming in Europe next year?" I asked as we rode home.
"I don't see why not." He answered. "I won't have to work all the time, I'm sure we can figure something out."
I couldn't help but smile at the thought of traveling through Italy with Edward, my husband, my soul mate, my best friend, beside me.
-V&V—
"This was one of the most fabulous days of my life." Chris announced with a grin.
We were eating pizza at Emmett and Rose's. Today was Rose's actual birthday and our last night together before Jasper, Alice and Chris flew back to L.A. on Tuesday.
"And why is that?" Edward asked out of curiosity.
"We did fittings for the rest of Emmett's groomsmen today." Chris said with a gleam in his eye. "Even the ones that aren't football players are ripped. I thought I'd died and gone to heaven." With those words Chris actually giggled.
"Chris, what would Gerry think?" Emmett chastised with a laugh.
"Emmett, I'm free to look, stare, flirt, and sometimes drool, Gerry doesn't have a problem with that." He grinned. "Otherwise he'd never let me go anywhere near Jasper." He said as he gave Jasper a little wink.
Jasper winced while the rest of us laughed.
"Rosalie, I can only imagine how stunning the rest of your bridesmaids are. If they're half as beautiful as you, Alice and Bella, they will be lovely indeed."
I could feel myself blush as Edward looked down at me and smiled.
Chris continued, "I'm still trying to catch my breath after spending the afternoon with all those hunks, and then add Emmett, Edward and Jasper to the bunch…" He sighed, "I think it may be illegal to have all that beauty under one roof." He snickered.
"I mean even your Dads are nice looking. Colonel Whitlock is a little creepy, but still handsome. And I certainly wouldn't kick Charlie out of bed." Chris blurted, causing my brother to choke on his beer.
"Christopher! Ew, just fucking gross man." Emmett barked out once he could speak again.
"What did I say?" Chris shrugged as he glanced around innocently, before giving me a playful grin.
We all laughed at Emmett's reaction, especially Jasper, thankful for once I'm sure that Chris was teasing someone other than him.
I thought about what Chris had said. It didn't matter how many gorgeous men were at Emmett and Rose's wedding, I only had eyes for one:
My Edward
I turned and shamelessly watched him as he ate his pizza.
My God he's fuckhot. How did I ever manage to attract a man like that?
I know! It must be because I'm so irresistibly sexy.
I actually snorted out a laugh. Edward gave me a weird look.
Just go back to eating your pizza you beautiful man. Sexy Bella's not through gawking at you.
And he did just that, as I continued with my inner monologue.
Why the hell haven't I allowed this gorgeous hunk of man flesh to jump my bones yet?
Right, I'm trying to abstain.
I need to reread the literature Father Pat gave me. I need to be strong.
Unfortunately when Edward took a sip of his beer and his Adam's apple bobbed, I was pretty sure my panties melted.
I need to drag him back to my apartment so we can hump like bunnies.
"Bella, would you please stop eye-fucking Edward. It's beginning to make me uncomfortable, not as uncomfortable as the thought of Pops in bed with Chris, but uncomfortable nevertheless." Emmett boomed.
Kill me now.
I could feel my face flame as everyone in the room had the good manners to try and hide their amusement, except Rose of course, she laughed out loud.
Bitch
"I hate you Emmett." I said with a pout as Edward pulled me against his side.
"I happen to know for a fact that's not true." Emmett smirked before taking another swig of his beer.
Edward pulled me closer as he rubbed my arm soothingly. I could feel his breath as he kissed my hair. "Baby don't be upset. I love it that you were staring." He whispered in my ear. "I'm not thrilled that Emmett embarrassed you though."
I still wouldn't lift my head. "Bella, I stare at you all the time, and I'm not ashamed to admit it."
I knew that was true. I'd caught him on more than one occasion. I looked up then and smiled at him.
"Better?"
I nodded before he gave me a gentle kiss on the lips.
I'm such a lucky bitch.
After the pizza, Rose blew the candles out on her cake. While everyone was enjoying a slice, I made a quick trip to the bathroom. When I opened the bathroom door to leave, I found Alice standing just on the other side of it.
"Alice! You scared the crap out of me." I whisper yelled as I clutched my chest. "What is it with you and my brother lurking outside of bathrooms in order to scare me?"
Alice chuckled. "Sorry Bella, I wasn't trying to scare you I swear." She said as she grabbed my arm, pulling me toward the guest room. "I need to speak with you for a minute."
"What about?" I asked as she shut the door.
"Have you given any thought about what to give Edward for his birthday next month?" She asked.
Shit. I'd been so busy, that Edward's birthday wasn't even on my radar yet.
What the hell could I get the man who has everything?
"Not yet Alice. I still have a month." I defended. "I don't know what I could get him that would be nice enough though." I said in a defeated tone.
"Oh Bella quit pouting." She said with a grin. "I had an idea of something he'd like, but it requires a little planning. I ran it by Rose earlier, and she loved it."
"Alice, I'm not letting you pay for some big expensive present for Edward, and then say it's from me."
"Bella stop. This won't cost much. You can foot the bill if it makes you happy, just hear me out." She said in a rush.
"Okay."
"Edward would really like a calendar." She stated.
What?
"Pardon me for saying this Alice but, the year's almost half over, and calendars cost what twenty bucks at most? Even I can afford more than that for my fiancé's birthday." I muttered sarcastically.
Alice giggled. "No silly. The calendar I have in mind would be filled with photos of you, and would start in June."
I frowned at her, "Seriously?"
"Absolutely. But we'll have to make it special. I was thinking about dressing you up for each photo, having a different theme for each month. For example, in September's photo you could be dressed as a sexy teacher. You know, seamed stockings, librarian glasses and 'do me' pumps." She giggled.
I was pretty sure that my face went pale at that suggestion. "Alice, you'd need a special effects expert to pull that off." I deadpanned.
She laughed out loud then. "Nonsense Bella, you really need to embrace your sexy side. My brother has a difficult time keeping his eyes, or his hands, off of you." She answered as she wiggled her eyebrows at me.
It seemed like I'd have to trust her on this one.
"How would we do this?"
"Edward said that you're coming to L.A. with him for a few days in June, I'll arrange everything for that weekend."
"I guess I'll leave it up to you then." I answered, still unsure.
-V&V—
"Baby, I've been home an entire week already." Edward announced in the dim light of my bedroom. We were lying in bed, but neither of us was finding it easy to fall asleep.
"Wow, a whole week? I hope the rest of the time until our wedding moves that quickly." I answered.
"Do you? Do you really Bella?" Edward whispered, concern evident in his voice as he rolled on to his side in order to face me, his head propped up on one hand.
I turned my head to face him. "Of course I do Edward. Why would you ask that?"
"It's just that," He let out a breath "I don't know, before you left England, I thought things were progressing between us physically. Only now, you seem to have pulled back."
He let those words hang there for a moment before continuing.
"I'm just afraid that you may never be ready for.."
I interrupted him then. My behavior had confused him. I needed to make him understand, and not feel insecure about us.
"Edward, no. You're wrong. So, so wrong." I whispered as I caressed his cheek.
He looked even more confused.
"I'm sorry that I haven't been more forthcoming since you got back." I said softly. "Our relationship is the most important thing in my life, and I apologize for 'living in my own head' so much lately."
He continued to listen.
"I haven't said this out loud until now, but I'd really liked to wait until our wedding night to make love." I said the words slowly as I gauged his reaction. "I hope you're not too disappointed, I mean it's only a little over two months away…"
"Eighty-two days" He blurted.
I quirked an eyebrow at him in question.
He looked a little sheepish. "I've been keeping track." He defended.
I smiled at that. "You see, it's not that I don't want to do it, it's just that if we take up where we left off in England, I'm afraid I won't be able to stop."
He let out a breath he'd obviously been holding. "Are you certain that you're not just afraid Bella? You know I'd never force myself on you."
"Edward, please believe me, I'm not afraid, especially not of you. You've been nothing but patient and kind with me. I really want to make love, God how I want to…" I smiled ruefully. "I just don't want to be in Emmett and Rose's situation."
"Pregnant?" He questioned, looking a little horrified.
I blurted out a laugh. "Well, that's something to consider. But I was thinking more about having to abstain. Right now, we don't know what we're missing. If we did, and had to stop, I'm pretty sure it would be torture, even worse than the torture we've having to endure now. I've had to listen to my brother and Rose complain loudly and without shame, about their lack of a sex life." I shuddered.
He snickered. "You have a very unique take on things Bella." He smiled as he pulled me closer, kissing my lips. "I adore your quirky mind, and I understand your reservations about getting closer physically. But I'd still really like it if you lost this shirt." He said while fingering the sleeve of my t-shirt.
I looked at him in surprise. He chuckled and gave me a pleading look. "I promise to behave." He murmured in his sexiest voice. "I just need to feel your skin against mine. Please baby."
I sighed, defeated.
How am I supposed to refuse that?
I sat up to face him. He sat up, mirroring my posture. As if he could read my mind, Edward suddenly yanked his t-shirt over his head and threw it across the room. We both sat there expectantly.
I took a breath. "You promise you'll behave?" I asked quietly. "Because Edward, I'll have you know that my will power is shit right now. I am literally hanging on by a thread. It wouldn't take much to change my mind."
"But you'd regret it tomorrow Bella." He said with an understanding smile.
"That's just the thing, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't regret it." I said as I pecked him on the lips. "Not even a little."
He laughed quietly. "So why are we waiting exactly?"
I sighed. "Once we make love Edward, I'll be yours in every way. I'd really like to be yours legally and morally before that happens. I'm not taking this step lightly, it's a big commitment." I answered, hoping he would understand.
His face lit up in a brilliant smile. "Do you know how much it means to me that I'll be your first Bella? You're already giving me such a wonderful gift by marrying me, but to know that you trust me that much…it's humbling actually. I don't deserve you."
Oh my God. He is killing me.
I reached for him and placed my hand on his cheek again. "Edward, what you just said, that was the sweetest, most romantic thing. I feel the same way about you. I mean, I'm your first too…it's kind of hard to wrap my head around how truly wonderful that is." Then I dropped my hand and gave him a knowing smirk. "But, if you keep up with the sexy, romantic talk, I am certain that my panties will abandon my body, which in turn will probably cause you to lose your boxer briefs."
Edward grinned broadly.
I frowned. "Under no circumstances is that allowed to happen Edward. Just like in the movies, you need to keep your package covered." I ordered. "Because if you don't, I know for a fact that I'll be riding you like a mechanical bull before morning."
Edward fell back on the bed in a fit of hysterical laughter at my words. Before he recovered enough to speak, I yanked my t-shirt off, tossed it aside, and snuggled beside him, skin against skin, just like he wanted.
We both sighed contentedly as his fingertips roamed over my bare flesh. We lay there for a long time before he spoke again.
"If we're really going to wait until our wedding night, I need to ask one favor." He said quietly.
"What's that?" I asked in a sleepy voice.
"I want to plan the honeymoon."
"Why?" I asked out of sheer curiosity.
"Because I want everything to be perfect, and I also want to surprise you." He murmured.
There he goes again, sounding all sexy and romantic.
"And I want there to be as much distance as possible between your brother and us when we finally make love." He admitted with a chuckle.
I laughed with him. "Smart man" I complimented. "I knew you weren't just a pretty face." I said with a giggle.
"Pretty?" He asked, insulted. "Please Bella, you are wounding my male ego." He said. I looked up to see his feigned painful expression.
"Okay I'll rephrase. You got a purty mouth." I said in my best red-neck accent.
"Bella!" He blurted with a laugh.
Hm, he's obviously seen Deliverance.
"Alright" I stuttered out between laughs. "You are smart and handsome." I said while punctuating each word with a kiss. "Better?"
"Better" He grinned before taking me in his arms and kissing me in earnest.
He kept his promise and behaved.
-V&V—
The days were passing quickly. After our discussion, Edward seemed to relax. I suppose he was relieved to know that I really did want to have sex with him.
Duh? As if that was ever in question.
What a silly insecure man.
I wondered if this was how ridiculous my insecurities seemed to him.
Definitely something to think about.
I also discovered that he really was counting down the days until our wedding. Every day or so he would leave me a little reminder of where we stood in the countdown.
I found this to be one of the most romantic things he'd done yet.
On Wednesday, I had lunch with Esme. This time I knew that Edward would be accompanying his mother. The night before, we had discussed my misgivings about the guest list, and planned to present a united front when we faced Esme the next day.
We also came up with an alternate plan that we felt certain would make her happy.
"Bella, it will take me no time to pare down the guest list. I don't want you to be uncomfortable dear." Esme reassured with a smile.
"Actually, you won't need to pare it down Esme. Edward and I discussed things, and came up with an idea." I smiled realizing we'd found a way to please everyone. "How would you feel if we only invited family and close friends to the ceremony, but invited everyone else to the reception?"
Esme smiled. "I have to say that it's not the conventional way of doing things, but I think it's a marvelous idea."
"Now let's talk about flowers." She grinned.
That was easy.
Edward smirked and gave me an 'I told you so' look.
We spent the rest of lunch talking about flower arrangements and bouquets. Who knew there were so many choices?
It was almost time for me to leave when Esme turned to Edward. "I spoke with Duke last night." She beamed. "He is so excited that you kids are coming out for a visit next month."
Duke?
"I need to call him." Edward answered.
As soon as he and Esme noticed my puzzled expression, he spoke again. "Bella, you look confused?"
I bit my lip. "I was just wondering who Duke was?"
"Oh" Esme exclaimed. "That's my father's nickname. He's had it forever." She smiled happily.
I guess I still looked curious, because she continued. "He's been a big John Wayne fan for most of his life. While he was in the army, his buddies pinned that nickname on him. I guess it stuck because my mother was introduced to him that way. She never called him anything else until she lay dying, that was the first and only time I heard her call him Anthony." Esme's voice cracked with emotion.
Edward patted her hand, trying to soothe.
-V&V—
Edward's birthday gift had been on my mind. I'd had an idea which would slightly alter Alice's plan, so I decided run it by her.
"Hello Bella!" She chirped into the phone.
"Hi Alice" I answered "I won't keep you long. I just wanted to let you know of an idea I had for the calendar."
"Glad to see you're on board with this. What's your idea?"
"Well, I thought about Edward's tastes. He really loves old movies, and I know for a fact that he likes the classic movie actresses."
"Oh, you mean his affection for silver screen 'divas'?" She added with a giggle.
"Exactly" I answered. "I was just wondering if we could incorporate a few of his favorites into the calendar."
"Oh Bella, you're a genius. He'd love that!" Alice squealed.
"The only problem is that I don't know how you'll ever get me to resemble some of those women. I'm just not that attractive, but I guess you know people that could do wonders with makeup and hair…" I stuttered out.
"Nonsense Bella! You. Are. Gorgeous." She barked. "Let me work on this, it's going to be amazing."
-V&V—
"There's one more thing I want to be in charge of" Edward declared as we were having breakfast on Friday.
"What's that?" I asked.
"The music for the reception." He answered.
"I just assumed we would hire a band like Rose and Emmett."
He nodded his head. "I have a couple of ideas."
"Let me guess, you're going to surprise me again?"
He grinned. "You're beginning to catch on Miss Swan."
There were a few songs that I insisted be included. As soon as I named them, Edward retrieved his laptop from the living room and pulled up a list of songs, showing me that my choices were already included.
I narrowed my eyes at him. "Have you been snooping through my ipod?"
"I'll never tell." He answered with a guilty smile.
"Edward Cullen" I scolded "You owe me. Hand over your ipod right now."
"Um, why would I do that?"
"You totally saw my 'Edward' playlist didn't you?"
"Yes" he admitted with a grin.
"Well, technically I showed you mine, now you have to show me yours." I snarked. "Although you didn't have my permission, therefore you're a peeping tom of sorts." I babbled.
Edward quirked an eyebrow "I told you that I'd show you mine baby, any time. You only have to ask." As he said this he stalked closer to where I was standing by the table.
"Stop." I demanded. Edward stopped in his tracks. I wouldn't look at his face because somehow I knew he was flashing me the 'panty dropper'.
Be strong Bella.
I held my hand out in expectation. "Hand it over Cullen."
He laughed as he reached for his jacket, which was hanging on the back of the chair, and pulled his ipod from the pocket, slapping it into my hand.
I found the 'Beautiful Bella' playlist easily and scrolled through the list of songs. I could feel my heart melt as I read the titles.
"You're quite a romantic." I said in a small voice.
Edward closed the distance between us and pulled me into his arms. "You seem to bring that out in me Miss Swan." He bent down and kissed my lips. "Seventy-eight more days until I can call you Mrs. Cullen."
-V&V—
We had an appointment at Tiffany's this afternoon. We were choosing our wedding bands today.
I, Bella Swan, who up until a few months ago nursed a strong aversion to the married state, was actually giddy at the thought of purchasing wedding bands.
Romantic love, more specifically, my love for Edward had caused a metamorphosis so powerful that I was unrecognizable from the girl I had been less than a year ago. Old Bella was dead and gone. Good riddance.
I didn't mourn her.
We strolled into Tiffany's, our arms draped around each other, Sidney and Lou keeping an eye out for trouble.
"Good afternoon Mr. Masen, Miss Swan" the manager greeted with a smile. "Please allow me to lead you to a private office to view our selections."
We followed him to a plush office in the back. I appreciated the fact that we could make our selections in private.
At least our photos won't be plastered all over the internet.
It didn't take long for us to decide on a platinum and diamond band for me, and a platinum band containing one small diamond, for Edward.
My favorite moment of the day came when we were both trying on our bands, and happened to glance up into each other's eyes at the same time. The bands weren't sized yet, but that moment gave us a brief glimpse of our wedding day. As soon as that thought registered, we both sat there staring and grinning at each other like idiots. I reached over and ran my finger over Edward's ring. In return, he leaned down and gently kissed my ring finger.
After Tiffany's we went back to the apartment. I worked on homework while Edward showered and changed. As soon as I heard the loud knock, I rushed to answer the door.
"Hey Bellaboo" Emmett grinned. "Come on, we're going out, you and Edward are coming with us."
"We can't Emmett" I answered just as Edward appeared, looking completely drool-worthy in his black suit and burgundy tie.
Emmett looked back and forth between the two of us in surprise. "Are you two going out?"
I pursed my lips and frowned. "Just Edward."
I glanced up and Edward was looking at me sadly. He turned toward Emmett to explain. "Back in January, when I took Bella on that first date to Canlis. I had to bribe some guy to get the private room he'd reserved. He didn't want money though; I had to agree to make an appearance at his daughter's sweet-sixteen birthday party."
Emmett eyes were twinkling with delight, "And it's tonight?"
Edward nodded before looking back at me apologetically.
"It's okay Edward" I grinned, trying to make him feel better. "I'm just sorry you had to promise something like that. It was a lovely date though." I reached up and gave him a quick kiss.
We could have gone to McDonald's for all I cared, as long as I was with Edward.
"Well, come on Sissy, you at least can go with us." Emmett urged.
I was about to refuse, when Edward interrupted. "Go Bella. Enjoy yourself. I'll call you as soon as I'm able to leave."
-V&V—
We ended up going to a local pub where we had sandwiches, chips and beer, Rose of course drinking a soft drink.
"I hear Edward had to entertain a bunch of teenage girls tonight" Rose said with a chuckle.
I frowned; this was bothering me a lot more than it should. I nodded in answer.
"You should have seen him Rose; he looked like a man being led away to his own execution." Emmett laughed.
I sighed. I was really feeling sorry for myself tonight.
Rose, gauging my mood, changed the subject. "How was the visit to Tiffany's?"
I gave Rose a grateful smile. "It was wonderful" I answered, as I proceeded to describe our wedding bands to Emmett and Rose. Well mostly to Rose because Emmett didn't give a shit really. He was polite however, keeping his mouth shut until I had finished.
"Come on Sissy, let's see what you got." He motioned toward an empty pool table.
"It's been a while" I admitted. "I hope I'm not rusty."
It always bothered Emmett that I was better at pool than he was.
I am so going to kick your ass big brother.
As I racked up the points, my brother put on a show. He cursed loudly, stomped his foot at times, accused me of cheating often, and pouted after I'd won.
Such a sore loser.
Having no pity on him, I did a little victory dance while Rose guffawed. Just then I noticed a figure behind her, half-hidden in shadow. I ran and threw myself into his arms.
Edward.
"How long have you been lurking there?" I demanded with a smile.
"Long enough to know I'm never playing against you." He smirked.
"How about you be my partner and we'll play against Emmett and Rose?"
"I can do that."
As it turned out, Edward really sucked at pool. Due to my superior skills, we were almost able to pull off the win, but in the end Emmett and Rose were the champions.
Of course my brother did a 'touchdown' victory dance in the middle of the pub, earning him a round of applause from the patrons.
"So how was the party?" I asked Edward once we were back at the apartment.
He palmed his face before answering. "It was everything I expected, and feared it to be." He answered with a chuckle.
"Did all the girls flirt with you?" I grinned, enjoying his discomfort a little too much.
"You have no idea. The worst one there was the Grandmother. Bella do you remember the old lady that groped me in the Cathedral that time?" He asked.
"How could I forget?"
He raised one eyebrow.
"No way" I whispered as my eyes shot open in surprise.
"Yes, she's Katie's grandmother." He shook his head as he laughed.
"Let's just say I was glad Sidney was with me." He chuckled. "With his assistance, I was able to make a clean getaway."
I laughed out loud, knowing I'd get the details out of him eventually. If I had to, I'd ask Sidney. Suddenly the image I'd conjured of Sidney putting Grandma Moses in a chokehold returned, causing another burst of laughter.
-V&V—
On Saturday, we rode to Forks with Emmett and Rose. Emmett actually behaved himself, although he seemed a little too curious about what kind of bachelor party Jasper was planning for Edward.
Charlie had the day off and greeted us at the door. We had lunch and relaxed in the living room until it was time to go to our Pre-Cana class.
As we sat there, Edward's phone rang. He answered it, and I watched as his facial expression changed from happy to angry in the matter of a couple of minutes. He stood and abruptly left the room to continue the call in private. I wasn't the only one that gave his back a puzzled look as he disappeared. Approximately thirty seconds later, Rose's phone rang. "Hello Alice." She answered sweetly.
Rose sat up straight as she listened. "Yeah, he looks really upset, what's going on?"
I immediately knew they were talking about Edward.
What the hell?
Rose turned and eyed me carefully. "Oh shit" she muttered.
"When was this supposed to have occurred?" She asked. "I see."
"Of course I believe you." She assured. "It's okay, you don't have to, I'll handle it."
"Okay, bye Alice." Rose ended the call and turned her body to face me. Charlie and Emmett were watching us intently.
"What's going on Rose?" I asked nervously.
"Jasper's on the phone with Edward." She frowned. "It seems that one of Edward's former dates is pregnant, and made a statement this morning, claiming that Edward is the father of her baby." Rose stated bluntly.
"She's lying" I stuttered out.
"Bella" she grabbed my arm. "Honey, we know she's lying. However, she's gotten a lot of attention by saying this. It's going to take a little time to prove that she's lying."
"Right now it's Edward's word against hers." She searched my face for a reaction.
"When?" I asked.
"When what?" Rose asked.
"When was this supposed to have happened?"
Rose sighed. "She was Edward's date to the MTV Video Music Awards last September."
"That was a long time ago."
"Yeah, eight months. She's due to have the baby soon." Rose rubbed my arm as she spoke. "I'm so sorry about this Bella. Alice and Jasper are trying to find out what motivated her to say this. She's obviously lashing out for a reason."
I took a deep breath. "I guess she doesn't care how many people she hurts in the process does she?"
Rose shook her head sadly.
I knew that Edward was probably tearing his hair out.
"I need to find Edward." I said determinedly as I stood from the sofa.
"I think he's on the back porch Bells" Charlie said. I glanced at my Dad to see that he and Emmett were both sporting the same worried looks.
I did find Edward on the back porch sitting with his head in his hands.
"Edward" I whispered.
No answer.
"Edward" I said a little louder as I walked over to him and put my hand on his shoulder.
He jerked away from my touch and stood abruptly. "I can't do this right now Bella." He choked out angrily before storming back into the house.
I felt like I'd been punched in the gut. I stood there stunned for a moment before the feelings of hurt finally settled over me.
I walked to the chair he'd just vacated and sat down.
Why did this have to happen now?
We'd been so happy planning our wedding and our future together.
This will mean public humiliation once again. School, work, even church will be uncomfortable until this mess is straightened out.
As much as the thought of that bothered me, I knew I was strong enough to handle it. What I couldn't handle was the utter rejection I felt when Edward pushed me away.
I couldn't help myself; I covered my face with my hands and began to cry.
No comments:
Post a Comment